shibari session in the jungle : crotch rope & nipple clamps for Suzy … the french student requested full nudity after being whipped three hours earlier !
35 images starring Suzy
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Let’s share session 369-02, fully reposted in a single archive : you will get the pics previously added to ILFG. I included the classic version (SD) which contains 35 additional shots compared to my premium favorites.
PHOTO SERIES
shibari images commentary @ilovefrenchgirls
Suzy bound & naked in the Jungle … natural ropes + nipple clamps ! I didn’t forget this session for many reasons : it was the last photo series with the young woman. After more than a year, we stopped because her behavior & requests were not clear enough. I always tried to keep one distance with my model, it was better to end the story.
When you play a game, there are rules to follow. Suzy wanted to live her submissive side without leaving her comfort zone. As I explained to her, the photographer was unable to give what she was expecting outside the sessions. When she was texting me into the night to express her kinky thoughts, she was crossing the line and we had to decide how to manage it.
In my mind, it became clear we had to change something. I wasn’t ready to act like everything was normal and had no consequences. You can’t have your cake and eat it … I think she wasn’t ready to assume the situation. On my side, I didn’t want to lose my reputation mixing professional and private life with a girl who was well known to be one of my models.
Anyway, back to the shibari session now. Three hours earlier, Suzy requested to be whipped & she really loved it. That’s why you can see some whip marks on her bum … when we spoke about this photo series, she suggested to be naked. For the first time, Suzy experienced the crotch rope without any clothes & she liked it too. You probably know her taste for nipple play : I used the metal clamps in several ways, linking the chain to my ropes.
I love the lighting and this contrast between her milky skin and the background. Suzy was a little bit jealous because I shot an italian model a few days before with the same settings. That’s why she wanted to do more adding nudity to shibari and I think it was a good idea. For me, the result is better than my previous session, mainly because of her long & beautiful hair.
MORE ABOUT THE SESSION
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Let’s complete my initial commentary with more details without writing too much … you can already find some information browsing my blog entries related to Suzy here or on ILFG. It’s a bit complicated to start another article about this photo series which was the last one with Suzy. I browsed my messages to remind me how we went to break this special link existing between us since 2009.
You could think my muse didn’t like the whip she requested during the first set of our shooting day … no, Suzy loved this new experience like this rope session fully naked : everything was going fine that day. However, 48 hours later, our exchange changed & one tension happened about the image editing after Suzy received some pictures quickly processed.
We were both very busy at this period : she was focused on her artistic career while I worked on the content for my websites + my Shibari School project. Suzy didn’t know how one image could be displayed differently depending on the screen used. I wrote her a long email to explain this fact, but we continued without understanding each other. That’s the kind of exchange I couldn’t like because a similar situation occurred with Graziella in 2009 : Suzy knew the story & her behavior sent a warning to me.
We decided to take a drink & talk together in Paris but I decided to clarify several points … since Suzy moved to the french capital, we became closer & probably too much. Beside our shibari sessions, my muse was sending a lot of signals, more than anyone before : I knew she had a lot of fantasies but my role was unclear. Suzy was living far away from her boyfriend and I could please some of her needs : my opinion has always been Suzy wanted to get more from me, more than a photographer could give.
It may look strange but I always tried to keep a distance with the models for several reasons … if you don’t know the story of Suzy, you should read my commentary about her first photo series for Captive Culture (338-01). When we started to share more moments together, I noticed the ambiguity of this situation and exposed my point of view to Suzy after she texted me several times on January 13 before going to sleep.
She gave a lot to me since 2009 and I thought we could go further in her exploration of submission but my condition was to find the right way, one compatible with the role all this implied. It would be easier to explain this situation sharing some messages but I won’t reveal our exchanges which were private. When I wrote my initial commentary for this shibari photo series, eight years after the shooting, I didn’t have the sequence of events in mind.
I brought this session back online on 2017, October 13 … eight months after the double surgery related to my cancer. I didn’t have the energy to search more than some memories but, for this blog update, my exploration went deeper. Because I was anxious that Suzy could use our proximity while we were officially one photographer & model collaborating together, I saved any message about her desire or requests to live more than our relationship entailed.
November has been one milestone in the game between Suzy, the kinky side of this 24 years old woman : the cage session and her first video printed her mind. In December, we spent more moments off the lens which added some confusion to this situation … for the first time, one of my muses asked to be in shibari for relaxing : it was very pleasant but also unusual, the psychology of Suzy was slightly different than others and all this could be a natural evolution.
However, I tried to slow down this escalation by defining the role of each person in this game which was clearly moving away from our usual pattern in January. As a photographer, I didn’t feel it was legitimate to go beyond certain limits with Suzy, who everyone knew as my model. The temptation was there, not to be her lover but rather a master, even if the image of the Pygmalion seemed more appropriate to me. It was difficult to find the right balance between taking a measured risk and my fear of experiencing this opportunity … Suzy could hardly understand my attitude as she sent more signals to me.
In February. I may have been too cautious but it was also a way to protect us : Suzy felt ready for going to Cris & Chuchotements, a famous BDSM club in France. She wanted to be suspended publicly and even suggested one possible date on March 04 : I chose to delay this night outing. A few days before our last session, Suzy asked my opinion about her idea to shave her pubic hair : I responded neutrally, perhaps she was expecting something else from this new invitation sent to me … but I didn’t dare cross this fragile line between us.
After a decade of forbidding myself from sharing more than sessions and friendly exchanges with my models, I no longer knew how to let go and live in the moment … Suzy may hoped a clear reaction from me, a natural and spontaneous positioning : like others before her, my muse was laying herself bare, seeking to please me while existing totally. I was often unable to see the obvious because my mind was not fully focused on the other, even more so during a photo shoot.
It is possible that I missed what was really happening in such a situation : Suzy was often in allusion, in unspoken things, her natural reserve complicated the encryption towards me. For my part, I have always needed clear signals, even unambiguous ones, to believe what I would normally forbid myself from thinking. This is a difficulty my wife faced when we met again after our first meeting on 2011, April 16 … yes, indeed, surprisingly, the timing of events corresponds to a pivotal moment in my life.
One month after this photo series which would become the last session with Suzy, I organized an event for the Shibari School : Mina having retired from the scene, I thought about Suzy but also Eskarina who wasn’t sure about participating actively. As explained earlier, we met again after this shooting day but I felt a certain apprehension about Suzy’s presence. That’s also why I invited Miss Eskarina even though the exercise seemed a little too special for her : cautious, I had also planned one rope bunny to supplement my models.
One week before the Shibari School, this third person withdrew and I posted a message on Facebook to compensate for this absence. Suzy misunderstood my announcement, thinking I was looking to replace her for our friendly meeting #05. Her reaction was probably the consequence of a climate that was no longer serene between us : I vaguely remember that she contacted Miss Eskarina on the same network, thus leading her not to come.
This is how we found ourselves doing this workshop with the participants only … among these guests was Faustine who would become my lover four months later. She was attracted by the ropes without being connected to my professional sphere but she quickly understood that making the first step was the only way to gain my trust, enough to free me and make me agree to live this beautiful story.
I didn’t know all this yet and it was with a knife between my teeth that I faced several hot situations in the following weeks. In addition to my sites and the content to produce, someone was trying to hijack the name Shibari School to make some money while my project was free. I have devised a clever strategy to counter this parasite without him understanding the subtlety of my action.
A dose of finesse that I cruelly lacked by writing one blog article talking about Suzy’s attitude since our last session and the following weeks. I would like to have a back-up of this rant but no, it’s gone forever : I had no news from my ex-muse … she used to read me and got my public message. Beyond the disappointment on a human level, my resentment focused on an essential fact of my life at that time.
The activity of my websites had become unprofitable for two years, to the point that I no longer paid myself. Each subscription sold was used to pay the hosting fees & billing companies but also the taxes of the french state. This is why I had to stop paying my models since a while, forced to work on the basis of the TFP exchange commonly practiced between models and photographers. That change had the merit of removing the notion of money in our collaboration and avoiding the underlying pressure for the girls.
If you are wondering why the Latex Culture sessions have been less frequent, it is mainly because buying new outfits became difficult. However, in December 2010, I ordered another maid uniform and a latex catsuit for Suzy who was dreaming to wear these clothes. The ones I had in XS were too large for her tiny size : despite the tension that arose about the image editing, I thought we could do another session, fully dressed in latex.
Our last SMS exchanges were on April 19, 2011, three days after the Shibari School. We had a drink at Palais Royal to talk together : I don’t remember our discussion but a long silence followed this last moment, face to face. One month later, to the day, Suzy emailed me: after reading my blog, she had given herself time. I had not contacted her again and the apprentice actress adopted the same attitude before sending me a message that expressed her disappointment but also a few sentences whose meaning offended my integrity.
I was saddened to read her reasoning leading to this impression “you always saw me as a source of income” … a conclusion linked to my disappointment in not having used this latex catsuit purchased for her. Suzy could not blame me for my respectful behavior so she tried this angle of attack. Two months earlier, it was the image editing she used knowing that it would be likely to make me react.
I had always been transparent about my past disappointments or doubts about my activity as a photographer. I did not want to get into an unhealthy game based on secrecy or duplicity. We did not have the same social origin and even less an identical experience: Suzy had approached me to explore her kinky side but the time had come to make a choice. I did not try to answer kindly, each sentence cut like a sharp blade. I regret the way this interlude ended but it was necessary to conclude it. She has been rejected as a submissive by an ungrateful master … Suzy deserved better but, at the time, I had other things in mind.
If a session took place four days later with Coffin Jane, my heart was not in it. Photographically speaking, that year 2011 stopped on September 05 by welcoming Lilichene for a second latex session after the one we did on June 21. I was going through another period of doubts shooting less often, my energy was drained by CC & LC + SS until Faustine cured me in August.
It was the beginning of our love story, slowly ending my adventure as a photographer : I did some sessions in 2012 & 2013 before putting my camera back in its bag. My taste for BDSM was stronger than ever but I didn’t want to start another cycle, more explicit … I felt that it would be impossible to be as lucky as with those who had been my muses for a decade. I did not want to cause more regrets in my models, times had changed, so had I, and I was a fulfilled man with Faustine. We did not know that life would test us with illness and sorrow … burying the desire to take new shots.
I hadn’t waited for Suzy’s remark to torture my mind on these questions that only models have the answers to. Throughout these years spent capturing their image, I had never stopped looking for the balance point for each of them … in hindsight, I am able to identify errors on both sides : there was no winning move, this exploration game exposed anyone who agreed to play it. It was impossible for me to predict the evolution of an increasingly open internet : from my private website to the social media, this absence of control has become a reality.
So, yes, of course, I questioned my role and the responsibility inherent to this activity. It obsessed me before paralyzing me, slowly but surely. In several years, I had gone from carefree enthusiasm to nostalgic weariness. Sometimes, a spark would ignite my mind for the space of a successful session for me and her, the model, whoever she was. This need for osmosis had made me change my way to work and the well-being of the one who posed had become my priority … beyond the content that adapted to the desires and limits of these women for whom I have always had a lot of respect.
Some of them gave me a reason not to stop earlier … Suzy and Mina were the ones who carried me in 2009 & 2010. When Mina left the fetish scene two months before 2011, I knew it would be difficult to continue without her. But in the meantime, Suzy’s presence had intensified after her move to Paris. We chained several sessions from which each one drew personal satisfaction until this last day of shooting. As I write these lines, I realize how long my text is, and I notice that there is no single word about this shibari photo series shot with the camouflage net on 2011, March 13.
The jungle is one of my favorite backgrounds, much nicer than the white studio where Suzy was whipped three hours earlier, finally wearing the maid uniform. Her desire was deep but I waited a long time before satisfying this request, partially. If Suzy’s words demanded more, I chose to give her a sample only, bringing some answers to the questions she was asking herself. Suzy had initiated a game in which I did not fully participate, out of restraint or wisdom. I did not want to lead her to the tears she was looking for, that did not seem possible in this context. I nevertheless managed to subtly mark her backside.
The image of Suzy in photo 5094 is one of my favorites … the young shy woman from the beginning had learned to get naked in front of the camera, slowly but completely. It was in the cage that she had gotten used to total nudity and this vision of her body had pleased her much more when discovering the photo series 365-01 & 366-01. In this artificial jungle, Suzy has been tied on my high chair used with many beauties … like Magena Yama a few days before : Suzy saw our images & told me she could have gotten naked for this shibari session. I sensed a disappointment to use the same setup : Suzy suggested her own nudity as a way of surpassing this italian model.
Once her legs were bound, my muse experienced the crotch rope like she had never felt before. The absence of any clothing produced the desired effect, this time, Suzy did not benefit from the protection of her lingerie, as soft and fine as it was. Her pleasure was perceptible and our proximity would have been conducive to a few caresses. But I remained in my role during this shibari session.
When she discovered my photo archives, Faustine said something that made me think a lot since. In her eyes, it must have been psychologically destabilizing to live such a situation without feeling or receiving a gesture from the man who is binding you. I had never thought of past sessions from this angle, but this feminine interpretation could explain or shed light on certain behaviors encountered over the years.
Faustine illustrated her point like this : “Can you imagine the thoughts of this girl who is being tied up, spanked, vibed when you kiss her on the cheek before going home ?” … indeed, if I tried to remain neutral and professional to avoid any misunderstanding or intrusive feeling, a modus operandi which suited most of my models, I had never considered that this could generate a form of frustration in some. I am not talking here about sexual frustration (even if we could include this notion by extension) but rather about a human feeling of the woman who gives herself to the other almost totally without perceiving the slightest signal from him.
It seems to me possible that this gap becomes burdensome at each session, when we share or exchange more together without me, the recipient of her trust, revealing myself in return. Perhaps this is why my models could interpret it as a certain coldness which contrasted with my bonhomie … the complexity of the situation could lead to perplexity or a form of weariness and bitterness for these people whom I wasn’t providing the keys to understand my own thoughts. Anaïs was the one who had the best chance of decoding my own encryption because of her knowledge of psychology, but some aspects escaped her, despite the special bond that still exists between us today.
Suzy got less time to observe & understand my reserved attitude. If she expected more during our last session or in previously, there was little chance she would feel what I was forbidding myself. My role was to help Suzy explore her desires to a limit that I had set for myself … by imprisoning her nipples with these metal clamps, I responded to her expectation & captured the beauty of this moment.
On a human and emotional level, we had been trying to find an alternative way for over a month. I had explained to Suzy the conditions required for her to go further in this exploration of submission. The situation that had been ours until then suited her perfectly, she didn’t understand why I was taking so many precautions.
I think she felt cornered or rejected even before I started lecturing her about image editing. I stood up to her and did not give in to the siren song: this broke something between us. I would have liked to keep Suzy’s smile, the one she offers us in photo 5161 … the hardest thing is always to end a relationship, whatever its nature. As I wrote previously, this one deserved a smooth ending.
CONCLUSION
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In the summer, I emailed one link to download all our pictures to Suzy … she replied nicely as if the tension between us had vanished. It has been our last exchange : nothing else with Miss Eskarina too, I have no longer access to the facebook profile used at this period so all this is blurry in my mind.
Her decision to cancel her appearance at the Shibari School friendly meeting #05 a few hours before the event was not well received. Whatever Suzy may have written to her on Facebook, misunderstanding our last-minute search for a model, Eskarina had no real reason to disregard the trust she had shown me since 2008.
So I considered that our collaboration had come to an end : my modus operandi has never been to run after a photo model, even if she was very pleasant to be around. I have no trace in my emails of a subsequent exchange : it is possible that we stayed in touch on Facebook but the only certainty is that our last session together was on 2010, November 13.
It was precisely to avoid this kind of situation that I was cautious with Suzy and my models in general. In this profession, many photographers have affairs with girls like some models set their sights on an artist. Everyone’s motivations are varied but this world is small and stories always end up getting out.
My reputation was that of a hard worker, loudmouth and a bit gruff but no one had gossip about this kind of thing with my models. It never happened because I knew it would end badly, leading to a potential contamination effect on these women who had to feel safe when posing for me.
Anyway, I apologize for this long commentary : this text may be less boring for those who wonder about this special, mysterious and fragile link that sometimes exists between an artist and her muse. As usual, I hope you will like these pictures : you can click on the download icon below, uncompress my zip file on your device before to enjoy your viewing. Please note you can also use the magnifying glass icon to browse this session online.
369-02 OFFICIAL ARCHIVE
by Jerome Duplessis
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shot on 2011, March 13
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